Sunstorm

wake up. lay in bed for awhile, hoping the more layers i covered myself in, the further i would be from here.

alas. eventually i woke up, and bought some coffee. then I went clothes shopping. I hate hate hate clothes shopping. I don't have any money, and I end up wanting too much and nothing all at once. I had to buy work clothes (THANK YOU VERY MUCH)

i have an interview on Wednesday, and I don't own a pair of "nice" pants, a presentable shirt or shoes that aren't converse.

Getting used to the fact that I am disposable.  Getting used to avoiding people, eye contact and help.

finally found a black knit dress, with a long pleat and cute pockets.  it screams "i'm short and you can take advantage of me in the work place!"

I am furious.  And the gin is almost gone.