lucky charms of course.

I am currently in a fairly infuriating cycle in which i fall asleep by 7pm, wake up around 11pm, and do not fall back to sleep until the wee hours of the morning.
Nothing new, I suppose.

I lay in bed now, to the sounds of Jamie putting new strings on his guitar. He will play music and I will read short stories. Hopefully this will get us through the remainder of the winter.

In the evening, I look forward to waking up and eating my serving of Lucky Charms. the last and first thoughts before i eventually fall asleep. I wonder, furiously, what other people think about in their last hours of consciousness. sometimes i am convinced that people can turn off their brains, and this they must do to lead a normal life. otherwise, how would anything ever get done? my mantra is Lucky Charms.....as i sleep....what are yours?

When i feel as though i haven't read enough, seen enough, or heard enough, I slip back into things i do now, with almost no desire to venture into the unknown. I should have already read this book, and I should know all the songs on my playlist, but I don't. nothing serious, just pestering enough to keep me awake and dreadfully neurotic.

I do know about Lucky Charms though.
3/4 cup for a full serving.
110 calories in said serving.
the marshmallows have changed dramatically since it's introduction in 1963. my favorite is the rainbow. in an attempt to keep kids on their toes, they have tried more "magic" charms, ones which have a hidden image that are revealed when you pour milk over them.
I use soy milk in my cereal every morning.
I cannot blink for 40 minutes after having consumed my bowl of marshmallows.
the leprechaun, Lucky Charm's spokes"man" is by far one of the most endearing of all cereal charachters. The cheerios Bee seems a little phony to me.

OOOOOOO i forgot about the red balloons. those are pretty fucking bad ass too.
but i digress.

i do like this little life i have created for myself. i just don't like where it is. or me in it. as an objective outsider, i think,
"it must be fun. surrounded by little animals and music. Russian literature next to the low ball of whiskey on the night stand. and Lucky Charms in the morning."